These have been a hard six months, and the happiest of my life, little fella.
They have been hard because even with you sleeping through the night I have struggled to get enough sleep. They are hard because I’m responsible for a tiny helpless person. They are hard because I second guess myself. They are hard because I’m a perfectionist, and parenting isn’t perfect. They are hard because the laundry quickly piles up, the coffee gets cold, and it’s hard to find time in God’s word. They are hard because I want to have energy for you, for Daddy, and for my other little personal projects. They are hard because they are slipping by TOO quickly.
But they have been the happiest because… I’m learning to be disciplined and prioritize–Sleep is one of those, if it isn’t done by the time I need to get in bed, it will just have to wait until later. I get to seek Jesus just about every moment of every day to make sure I’m caring for you how you need to be. HE is my strength and my confidence. I’ve known that before now, but I am getting to live that out. And as I am prioritizing Him before everything–Even you and Daddy–I’m watching Him stretch my time, fill me with joy, fill me with an extra boost of energy… He is sustaining me, as He equips me to sustain you. And WOW, what an incredible place it is to be–Completely relying upon the Savior. And as I watch you growing, oh, so fast, as I rest in Him to carry me through each day… We are SOAKING up our time together me and you. These moments are so sweet and precious, and one of the greatest gifts I have had this last half year is that I have truly been able to enjoy just about every moment.
And there have been so many sweet moments. We’ve recently gotten to watch you sit up on your own and become more independent. You LOVE food, and it is hilarious to watch you gobble it up and make a complete mess at dinner every night (I think it is funnier than Daddy, which is also humorous since I’m usually the one to clean it up!) You spent a awful week teething this month, but you were also extra snugly at night when you would wake up fussing. (And for the record, you decided that your top teeth should come in before your bottom ones.) You’ve started talking and are figuring out how to say “mama” and “dada”, you can’t do it consistently yet, but we’ve heard you–And you get the BIGGEST grin on your face when you manage to get them out and we see it. You’ve also started saying “abba” and Daddy is convinced that “God” is your first word. 🙂 You enjoy being outside, and on fussy afternoons we take long walks together. Sometimes if you’re extra fussy, I play children’s songs from my phone while we walk, and probably look really silly to the people we pass–But you and I don’t mind it.
There are so many more little things I could write down, but your Daddy is gone this evening, you are tucked into bed, and it is getting close to my bed time so I am going to wrap up. Oh how I LOVE you though, little man! My heart continues to grow bigger each day. These last six months have flown by, but really it seems like we’ve always had you. You’ve become such a part of us, I can’t imagine “Caroline” ever having been complete without her little fella. Happy six months! Here is to many more.
P.S.
Your Nana never wanted me to delete a single picture that her babies where in… I understand why now.
